Be Still

One of the things that helped me overcome depression is, I learned how to sit still, in silence, By MYSELF, with God.

When i was fighting depression I did everything I could to avoid sitting still for to long, because sitting still made me think to much. It made me face reality too much. And that was something I avoided doing as much as possible.

I didnt want to face my demons

I didnt want to sit still and take the time to analyze myself

I avoided spending time with myself because I knew I had to heal first in order to do so

And as bad as I wanted to heal I was afraid too do so

Until I finally realized I HAD TOO!

I stopped everything I was doing.

I cut off everyone.

one by one

eventually I stopped going out everyday,

and i just sat by myself with myself in the house.

though i was still having a battle with narcotics

I was doing it alone, without anyone, or around anyone.

eventually I stopped using.

because being on narcotics gave me a boost of energy...

LOTS OF ENERGY

so that i wouldnt have to sit still with myself

So eventually i stopped.

and i sat still sometimes in silence. sometimes with gospel music on

i used the gospel music to silence the thought of relapsing until i built enough strength to not even think about narcotics again

i learned to love myself..

i did things that made me feel good about myself.

some of the things are

Praying, Listening to a teaching, listening to music rather it be gospel or some r&b music

I found a hobby to keep me busy everytime i got bored which is painting

I started a Youtube channel and a Tiktok

I baked cakes, dressed myself and made myself look cute.

Once I realized how much fun it is to sit still with God and myself, I realized how crazy i was avoiding that.

Yes apart of depression Is clutter.

Either it be clutter where you live, or clutter in your mind

I eliminated All Clutter Both physical, spiritually, and mentally

My Advice to anyone who is fighting depression

is to try and sit still. alone with yourself. and I dont mean going to sleep.

I mean sit still and take a couple deep breaths.

get to know yourself, love yourself without any distractions.